hello.

i decided just yesterday that i should be documenting this transition in my life. not just for myself, but for everyone that ive left behind..my friends and my family. im more alone than i ever have been before, living halfway across the nation from everyone i know. but i am more than ever wanting to share the things that i am experiencing. i want people to know why ive made the decisions i have made, and i want to show everyone why i love and why i loathe this new city i live in. i need to document the process of searching for myself, the endless pursuit of my career, and the idiosyncrasies of living in NYC. I think in doing so, i might eventually realize how far ive actually come. this will help me know more of WHO i am and WHERE i am. i need to be more aware.

last February, a year ago tomorrow, i was moving in with jonathan in stillwater. i had about 2 grand saved for my move and transition to this city. when i moved there, it took me 5 months to save 900 dollars. i was working almost full time, but the economics in that city were shit. that place showed me how hard you have to work for one tiny step forward. it proved to me that i KNOW what i want...and im going to get it. i accomplished my goal, and now im here, in NYC, just like i wanted so badly.

now the next step. i applied for FIT and was accepted, but decided shortly after that i can do it on my own without another degree. those are just words anyways, right? i can teach myself. what really proves to people here is real life experience, not words on paper. so im gritting my teeth and taking it one step at a time. ive completed an internship and learned so much about the industry i want to be in. and now i think im REALLY ready to start this process. i just need investors..hahha. any takers?

this is my start.
i walk past this at least 3 times a week. its an ever changing sculpture but i never seem to catch the artist at work. the gorilla is eating a compact disc.

this is where all the birds in williamsburg live.

some shots of the WTC.