a lot.

well its been a bit again. ive not been very good at this over the past months. but i feel like when i do update, its slightly significant. I think about doing a post often, but its more often then not that i dont feel like writing. for lack of better explanation, its been quite hard to get out of the "funk" im in lately.

life has taken several significant turns lately.

i finished at Love Brigade. What a wild ride it was. And finishing is starting a whole new chapter for me. I learned more then i ever imagined to, met the mentor of my life, and made some amazing friends. these people are such a FAMILY to me now. im going to have to make excuses to go out of my way to hug their necks without letting them in on knowing how much i miss being in their company. if you guys happen to read this, I LOVE YOU!

my personal life has changed drastically, and i hope for the better. though the decision was the hardest ive made in my entire life..i am trying to stand by it in hopes that it will benefit us in the future. distance makes the heart grow stronger. i truly believe in that. its so hard..because now i feel more lonely then i ever have in my life. not just lonely, but i feel ALONE. makes me wonder even more, where am i? i ask it every day. with this decision, i hope only that it makes us MORE confident in our love for one another. more confident then i already know we are. its so bittersweet...i cant even begin to explain how i feel.

i also started classes. A hand sewing and mending class, which based on one class seems to be a waste of time...cause i knew everything already. but im sure that will change. and a class called wardrobing for film theater and tv. This class seems like it will be VERY beneficial for me. not only is the professor intensely knowledgeable about the field but she is passionate about helping students find their path. im hoping that this class will make me more confident in my decision to be a certified costume designer. i question myself waaaayyy to much.

and im searching for a new apartment. my lease in my current apt is up around the end of june. I CANT WAIT TO MOVE! though funds are extremely low right now..i cant wait to get out of this apartment. my room is tiny, im 10 blocks from the subway, an hour from all my friends and 45 mins to the city. its outrageous. and i pay more then what my situation is worth regardless of the fact that my apt is beautiful. i. just. cant. wait. i cant do this anymore!



LB <3 event with Tinypantz. Beavis/Butthead impression.




the webster hall "god." my photo doesnt do it justice. ya gotta be there.


an upstairs photo of swanky Tonic. my place of work.

the other direction. im sitting at the bar.

photo of the schedule for the kitchen staff. i love mexicans.

central park! it is soooo pretty.

110th st. cathedral. the most amazing staircase youve ever seen. this place fueled my fantasy of being alice in wonderland. im going back with a better camera.


i looked in the keyhole. i saw tremendously creepy things. seriously.


the COOLEST statue ive ever seen! ill eventually be getting better pics.
this was outside the cathedral. there was also an albino peacock, which for some dumb reason i didnt get a photo of. i think he lives there. kind of a magical afternoon.

i want the nice weather to come back. the sun proves to me i have seasonal depression.

thats all?